Sharing and allowing others to witness my vulnerabilities and insecurities is the most difficult part of my journey in life. I have seriously questioned my motives for this. To place myself in the public arena and be real. To be real and authentic, a very scary proposition. I have hidden my true self since childhood and continued to do so until Now. I believe this is a pattern for all who care to read this if we are honest with ourselves. Our desire to fit in and be accepted by others vs what we know and feel inside. To not be labeled or judged. to live our lives quietly and hope no one will notice. Then we come to a cycle in different parts of our lives where we tire of the suppression and speak out. So what happens instead of support, after a brief period of vocal freedom, many of us retreat again into ourselves. suppressing all that is within us. Society says in its many forms, BE QUIET or follow what your environment dictates. The Norm. The safe old patterns. Do Not rock the Boat. People will make fun of you. Have we ALL not heard these. So there comes a time we need to decide what our soul shares. Some, like i did join groups of like minded finding our voice. Then we find, we seemingly do not fit again and move to another. A repeating cycle, until we have allowed ourself to be comfortable. There are always triggers thrown at us unexpectedly which make us doubt and want to go back to the old ways of security and comfort. Each time, not as devasting.
We have weathered this spiritual evolution, and many who are comming out like myself to share, are doing so from our hearts. We do not fit the present society image of qualified speakers. We are just like you, facing our insecurities and inner demons brought up to face by these dark nites of soul we all are experiencing. By walking through and experiencing these challenges ourselves, we are able to shine the light on the path so you may understand through our experience. We wil never tell you How to do it but to support you thru your own inner knowledge which is waiting for you to explore.
If you were just to choose to overcome your fears of what you are and take the first step, you will find there are many like yourself sharing of their hearts and wisdom and coming together thru community. Break the old boundaries of understanding, judgments and fears. We created them so we can break them by changing ourselves. Overcome and shine the heart lights you are. We are doing this together.
Again i share parts of my journey of remembering. I do recognize i incarnated awake, no blinders on, but thru the timeline i choose to experience and soul contract family i had. it was a time of consciously shutting down because of no external support. Does that feel familiar to you? A common pattern we all share. We have always separated our spiritual nature from what we project trying to go thru the flow. Unless your soul chose an exceptional incarnation of recognizing your light at an early age and full support. Most have has have felt lost with periods of clarity/awakening thru our life experiences.
I feel if we were true to review our lives, minus the emotions of anger/blame and projections and victimhood we try to rationalize our existence. We can step back and see what we learned or have grown from the challenges and that we can create what we want to have in our lives. We hold ourselves back thru old pattern beliefs we may not need anymore. We are beginning to see with open hearts and new vision the world around us and realize we have purpose and value in this world. this is not about ego/personality but just about accepting your unique light and how you contribute to this world in reconstruction
So my point here is what if you allow yourself to just be you. Let all that light within you come to the surface/conscious. Discover your soul song. Your energy expression thru eons of time. You are unlimited light, love and what a beautiful world we shall create together. A dream manifested into reality. Listen to the inner voice of your soul and let it express thru your heart. This is your song of your soul.
As I continue this journey of remembering with you, sometimes we overlook obvious wake-up hints. as we muddled thru our daily lives. If you stop a moment and think, how many hints or triggers are presented to you daily to be consciously aware of something.. It can come in any form, a book, a movie, a person, something in social media, a look in the eye of a beloved animal. Sometimes it is so subtle, we feel the energy, yet fail to pay attention. I am so guilty of this lol. In my case, the energy needs to have a stronger force and then becomes the triggers lol energy of aha and called to an action of some sort. It is all about opening up to all around you and seeing energy and messages for what they call. triggers, interesting word and to me create an action. to be inspired.
I met a young man/old soul who approached me from this blog. he approached me thru contact email, and not sure if i would reply. he said he just followed his heart and took the chance. I am new to blogs as writing does not come easy because of a brain tumor, now healed that serious rewired my brain and nde. so So even attempting this is a major deal for me lol. Well in speaking with him, he said he was drawn to the tara, a ancient mother energy reflected in an ancient crystal skull form from the Himalayas. I have never mentioned this aspect of my soul work here yet, though i am known in crystal groups for this work. So this really caught my attention. He mentioned the word trigger as he seems to have that unconscious effect on some. I am seeing this as a soul contract, designed to really get me back on track. Now i am expanding my live talks to include timely issues and to break the old myths of power objects as seen thru time.
My point in this sharing is to be aware of all that comes to your attention and be discerning as that is your choice. Some triggers are subtle in making you aware and some are very life changing. They are there for All. Now choose to be aware of them, when they help you remember your unlimited self and explore all the potential within. The truth is really, there are no experts, we all have that soul knowledge within waiting to be expressed in a positive way. Enjoy the journey of remembering. We are in this together
After the darkness, Let there be light. When we feel lost in the darkness of collective emotions and chaos. Let Light shine on your path, to guide you. No matter what your circumstances in life. let there be light. Choose to let your soul light break thru the darkness and experience the beautiful heart light you are. Only you can do this, it is your inner journey, to open the conscious door and let your light break thru the darkness you feel.. The new dawn is breaking and you are an important part of it, Stand strong in your hearts light and all will transform. let there be Light.
Today, I ponder on the several NDE experiences in this life incarnation. Some unsettling and the last one profound. So hard to put words to the experiences, as everyone who has it is a very individual process, according to beliefs at that time. Looking back, i see how each one transformed me on some Level. I am seeing them as soul designed wake up calls lol. We are consciously transitioning from an unaware experience to a deeply conscious one where we discover our soul light. Transitioning, moving from one growth experience and entering another, like the life cycle of the butterfly symbolism. Maybe time to really look at these words and experiences and find deeper meaning. As All is transitioning to deeper levels of understanding. We are rebirthing.